tinyxxraindrop said: I know you've talked about depression a lot on social media and I admire you for being open and honest about it. How do you deal with people knowing about your depression? I've never talked to anybody about it, really. Much less my parents they think my behavior is just me being 'a lazy person with no motivations in life' I'm scared ppl will judge me or think differently of me. I've come so close to telling my mom about it but don't know how. Any suggestion?
I’m gonna be honest, the internet is the first place I opened up about my depression. When I post things, I imagine them floating out into space and don’t even think about anyone seeing or reading them. It’s honestly a release to me. I don’t go into full details. There are things that are very private to me. I used to keep a journal, and then a private blog, and then I would just openly post things. People here encouraged me to seek help and that things would be okay. It made me feel a lot less weird about my thoughts and actions.
Telling others was a different story. Not many people in my life really know about the depths of my depression or anything I’ve been through. My mother pulled me out of a dark state about a year ago when she noticed I was acting out and being mean and I finally told her that I was sad… so fucking sad.
Sometimes we need one person to open up to. Sometimes we need a non-judgmental audience to open up to. Sometimes we need to write about it alone in our room. Sometimes we need to tell our group of friends. Whatever you do, it’s your choice.
If you’re not ready for help, then don’t do it. It’s not going to help you. The first time I got help, I THOUGHT I was ready and pretty quickly decided that I was all good. I wasn’t. If you’re scared of yourself/your thoughts/harming yourself, I seriously encourage to at least tell your mom that you’re having a rough time and would like to go speak to someone. You don’t have to open up to her completely yet. But depression is an illness and it does need to be taken care of.